Notes on this page: I'm a massive thinker and I love to talk to myself. Sometimes the best way to scratch this itch is to spill it out onto a page, so I've found. This is especially helpful if it is something that no one else but me would care to hear about. I am not writing these with the intention for them to be read and understood by other people, so if they don't make much sense and are poorly written, you are the only one to blame - why weren't you born as me?

I'm getting melancholic again I think. Maybe it's a hormone thing? I've been avoiding Baldur's Gate because I really don't want to attempt the Jannath Estate again. I just want to finish it at this point so I can make a new save.

I've become withdrawn and suspicious of the intentions of those around me. I don't enjoy it, but sometimes it happens. I'm looking forward to the Easter holidays so I can escape everyone for a few days (even though this means that I'll be in close proxemity to my immediate family, uh oh). I need to try to convince myself to pick up my antidepressants at some point today, but it feels so difficult. I wish I could just get up and do it. I could ask one of my friends to do it for me, but I think they're all at university today. Much to do/think about!